I told her one day she would be doing the dishes, hear a song, looking out the window, or some other simple or innocent thing, and suddenly she would wake up and wonder what the hell she did.She may, may not. I used to hope for that day but I don't anymore. At the time it seemed like it would be nice vindication, but I don't need that validation like I did back then. I'm in a much healthier spot in reference to my own self worth/esteem. I have gotten to a point where I'm pretty solid in self-validation and don't need it from an outside source. But I feel solid. I like who I am. I like who I have become. I like the vision of who I am still turning into.
Hey Steady- I trust it felt as good to write this as it did for me to read it.
Originally Posted By: Steady
I've talked to her in the past about the cycles we run through. We repeat them over and over until we get it right and learn what we're supposed to learn.
I've had similar conversations. I'm hoping that this time I'm learning. Irecognize the same problems I have had; see the pattern. The difference is THIS time I am going to do more than identify them. I am going to eradicate them as much as I can.
Originally Posted By: Steady
There's still some residual in me and I'm not sure I could ever get it all out.
Otherwise you'd be perfect and always do things "right". And we know what that means and where it gets us, right?
