Drinking wine and thinking bliss is on the other side of this I just need a compass and a willing accomplice All my doubts that fill my head cascading up and down again Up and down and 'round again, down and up and 'round again
Oh, I've had my chances and I've taken them all Just to end up right back here on the floor To end up right back here on the floor
Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell But I'm not scared at all The cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball
Sometimes you think everything is wrapped inside a diamond ring Love just needs a witness and a little forgiveness And a halo of patience and a less sporadic pace And I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes
Oh, I've felt that fire and I, I've been burned But I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned
Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell But I'm not scared at all Of the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball
Irony, irony, this hate and love, hate and love What it does to me? What it's done to me? What is done, done?
Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel Broken mirrors and a black cat's cold stare Walk under ladders on my way to hell, I'll meet you there But I'm not scared at all, I'm not scared at all 'Bout the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
Had a rough night ... had trouble sleeping ... too much thinking ... Rowan was up through the night too, a couple of times. Left me raw and tired this morning. Keegan was whining about not wanting to go to school and Aden started crying about not wanting to go to daycare ... J landed to pick up Aden to take him to daycare and he was helping the boys calm down and then he walked the bigger two to the end of the driveway and waited for the bus with them ... just made me miss "the family life".
He came in and saw that I was upset and asked what was wrong, I said "Never mind, you don't want to know" and he said "how do you know that" and I apparently forgot every DB thing I've ever learned and said "I miss our family life. They deserved better than this. We deserved better than this. Told ya you didn't want to hear it." He says, really iritated, "who said I didn't want to hear it". Then he says "gotta go, rugrat is in the van". And he left and I cried some more.
I hate being tired. I'm tired of being tired.
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
Had a rough night ... had trouble sleeping ... too much thinking ... Rowan was up through the night too, a couple of times. Left me raw and tired this morning. Keegan was whining about not wanting to go to school and Aden started crying about not wanting to go to daycare ... J landed to pick up Aden to take him to daycare and he was helping the boys calm down and then he walked the bigger two to the end of the driveway and waited for the bus with them ... just made me miss "the family life".
He came in and saw that I was upset and asked what was wrong, I said "Never mind, you don't want to know" and he said "how do you know that" and I apparently forgot every DB thing I've ever learned and said "I miss our family life. They deserved better than this. We deserved better than this. Told ya you didn't want to hear it." He says, really iritated, "who said I didn't want to hear it". Then he says "gotta go, rugrat is in the van". And he left and I cried some more.
I hate being tired. I'm tired of being tired.
Hi PEI,
I'm sorry you're having such a tough go of it.
Hey, I just wanted to caution you. I hope you're not using real names here, because this is a public forum, and there's been more than one poster who was shocked to find out that a simple Google search of their kids' names has turned up their posts on this forum for their spouse to find.
