i was just thinking about what u wrote SM. u r right. she even references that to this day. in her mind she is using that as justification for all that has happened. she even accuses me of other affairs which i never had. that one moment of weakness, the seed was planted? i should have come clean then. i did come clean later. too much later to do any good. and if u can imagine, the W was my first and only true love at the ripe old age of 24. i have spent 18 years w/ her.
i need to be a man. be myself. or else i will appear weak. that is NOT attractive.
