It isn't something that anyone here can answer for you.
It took me months before I got to this place and I was stunned when I woke up one day feeling this exact way, however deep down, I think I knew my H would never do the work to repair the damage that had been done.
He would never be that person I knew ever again, however on this journey I have realized I will never be that woman again and I am extremely happy with that realization.
19 months later and he is still waffling on everything and still tells me he loves me yet lives with the OW.
He has done nothing to move forward and is content to continue to live like this for who knows how long...
I realize as each day passes, I grow a little more stronger, a little more worthwhile and a little more forgiving towards him and her.
Doesn't mean I want him back though, because quite frankly, I will never be that woman again and I am just fine without him.
I wish them well and I hope he is happy with the choices he has made...
I will never allow a man to rule over me again, to control me nor place my happiness in his hands...
Those are the gifts I got back in this journey and I refuse to give them up again.
((((Hugs))))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
