Is this part of the process? It feels so foreign to me.
Yes and it is unsettling. It's because you are starting to recognise the hurt you have been dealt. It's OK to feel that way. Just don't get stuck in a negative place or let it turn you bitter and angry beyond what is healthy.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
