I did not think she was gay. That aspect still has me in a state of shock. I know that it makes me feel so completely inadequate as a lover. I know in my head that I should not feel that way, but it is hard not to think that I am so bad in bed that I sent her completely off of men.
Or this can liberate you. The girl I took to a dance in the 9th grade, our Jr High "Prom" , didn't give the time of day at the dance. I thought it was me. One of my GAL activities during my sitch was to talk to some old HS buddies. One of them said he goes out with this girl and his buddy and her friend. I asked, "Your wife is OK with this?" He said, "Yeah don't you know X is gay?" All these years I thought it was me, little did I know I never had a chance.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
