No worries updating yourself on my thread. I have been thinking and thinking about you, and everyone else, these past few weeks, just no time to post.
All is reasonably well. Still shock waves, still tears, etc.
Just now saying to myself:
can I say: gee, Aver, you have had a f**k of a year. You basically weren't sober or very sane for a year. So, if now, you are finding yourself having strange emotional reactions to things; or re-settling your body (I pretty much forced myself to eat for a year--now I'm hungry all the time!), even missing the constant anxiety a bit--because that gave me huge energy to leap out of bed every day--now I have to drag myself out of bed; rebuild relationships that were strained, or more intimate than usual...if all these things are true, then it is OKAY for you to take time, have COMPASSION for yourself (as my therapist says)and re-make your life.
Really, it is like being a different person. Coming out of the coma and trying to pick up where you left off.
So--that's where I am at. Trying to work on Mindfulness; Mindfulness-Based Cognitive Therapy stuff; shake off the fog of the past year; wake up to my new self.
Yikes.
LFA--keep those updates coming. I hope your whole D will be DONE SOOONNN!! Then maybe you have time to come be in the alt with your new computer, and we can catch up on our newly-developing lives.
