"..., you just keep living days, crossing them off the calendar and eventually it all just becomes routine." Yes, I had a journal. Some days its just - woke at 6:30am; got kids to school on time; cooked dinner; went to bed at 10pm. But it gets you thru' a day.
"My friend has done a few of those 2 hour or more distance match.com relationships. He says no more. I have on my profile that I am limited to 10 miles." Listen to Kerry, the great ladies' man ;-)
You seem to be doing much better. And despite all those nasty 2x4's to the cranium! I think you SHOULD establish firm boundaries both with the STBx and the kids for your own well being; it helps the healing and you have been severely traumatized.
