# 72 - Could be better, could be worse...

[AliSuddenly]

Hey K.. my sitch has been easier than some, but I still have to swallow feelings, daily even, becuase I still feel anger, resentment and .. jealousy (something I never felt before in my life). It doesnt matter how loving and recommitted they are, we went through the agony of knowing our partners were choosing to lie alongside someone else each night. I agree that in your case, you read and saw too much and have unfortunately given yourself all the gory details. Curiosity killed the cat!

I still have those 2 photos imprinted on my brain.. of her in bed, tousled, smirking, post ML. It kills me to think about it and I know you saw worse.. you showed me a pic that was worse (although your H looked uncomfortable I swear!).

I think you will 'forget' one day, enough for it not to be so painful, you just need to let some more time go by, equivalent to the amount of damaging images YOU saw, for the memories to fade a little. Give yourself a break, you did a tremendous thing, you took a man back after not just an A, but an absence from the home and your lives.

hugs, as always.. miss you! xxx