Hi Bobby, you are doing well. Careful about this ^^^ smells a lot like mind reading/setting yourself up for heartache with expectations.
IMO, you sound like you are focussing on being dark/dim as a tactic to get your wife to miss you. Detaching and going dim are to protect you emotionally.
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
