Early Parole from the MLC Chain Gang?????

[AJM]

I think BR is right. But I get it. It's a new place to be in and you seem to be exploring it. I think that's not a bad thing.

What also comes to mind is that you are feeling the changes in you. They are very much changing from what I read. I may be projecting some of the turmoil I feel over the same issues. Same thoughts. Worded differently of course

Was talking to someone last night and I posed the question to them that she still has a piece of my heart and I want it back from her, but I can't get it. Sooooo, if I can't get it how could I ever give all of me to someone else eventually???

My friend suggested that while my W may always have that piece of my heart, the void that is left in my heart will eventually grow back and my heart will be whole again even though my W still has a small piece. I thought it was an interesting analogy to that of a plant.

Your friend is sooooo right. Be open to the possibility.

But I think much of what you may be feeling is the change in the relationship with your wife. You are no longer pursuing or coming to the end of that. You are letting go. She would feel that as well. Can't hide it. Can't fake it although many have tried. Has to be real, and I read in your post that you are real. Very much so.

Don't be afraid of the feelings. Feel them. Just like you have been. You're asking the right questions and growing. Mach gave some really good advice and insights I think. As did Eric. You may want to re-read them. I know I will