New Beginning

[beingreal]

Baby girl, you can have my sword. lol I warn you though, it's a heavy one.

I actually thought of this thread the other day at work when I walked by a grumpy female coworker & pinched her on the butt. It snapped her out of her bad mood & made the ER a little more tolerable for the following hour. But still...


Okay... back to your last post.

Asking yourself about the right to be done. About being afraid of reactions, about every other thing that has your heart in turmoil right now. Because trust me, I can completely understand just how much stress you've been under the past few weeks.


First things first--f$$k what anyone here thinks of your being done.

They don't walk in your shoes, they don't live your life, they don't pay your bills so who the f&^% cares what the f(*$ they think. (<~~notice no question mark at the end there. It is a statement, not a question.) I'm not quite sure how the MLC board became the end-all-be-all authority on personal relationships. Who died & decided that a small group of people would determine when we, as adult human beings, got to do things--like move on, be done, move forward... whatever you want to call it.

They can push you to dig deeper and they can challenge you to really look for the answers. BUT in the end, as long as you are being true to yourself, then it doesn't matter one tiny little bit what anyone here thinks. I think you've been pretty damn honest with yourself and everyone else here. Kudos to you for wanting to continue to live and learn in the spotlight of the boards so that others might learn from you.

You are a strong woman.

As for the rest of it... hell, did I mention I'm on drugs right now??? lol Legal Rx drugs, of course.... but hells belles...

The road that brought you here is just that... the road that brought you here. You don't have to try to explain any of it to anyone. Unless you are just thinking out loud while trying to figure it out yourself. Have at it, then. If you honestly wonder if you've earned the right to be done, or if you are questioning any of the choices you have made (which I don't think you are), then by all means throw the engine neutral & drop anchor here for a bit. Really look at everything that has happened and decide if you have done these things for all the right reasons.

Only you know that. Absolution can only come from you. Just like the understanding, strength & courage you've shown.