Early Parole from the MLC Chain Gang?????

[beingreal]

You will not question this once you reach that point of knowing you are done. UNLESS you already have someone in your life. If you are uncertain, and you meet someone, and THEN you decide that you are done, chances are, it is not because you have found that place of peace, but because you have found another...

Going to have to agree with this one. Maybe this is the reason I'm excited about my future. The possibilities are endless, with someone, without someone--it doesn't matter. I'm happy now, I will be happy in the future, whatever it brings.


I wondered about something while I was reading your posts, Chris. When you said you realized that you were trying to "talk your way out". Try to follow me here... lol.

You said you were wondering if you were really done, wondering when you would be done. You know it was temp taking, but I have to wonder who's temp you were taking?

You did so good for so long, then suddenly it hits you, and you wonder "wth??". So you talk to her, and you look her in the eye & you end up talking about the changes you made. Were you gauging her reaction, or your reaction to her?

If she had responded positively, how would you have felt?

If she had responded negatively, how would you have felt?

If she didn't respond at all?

If she had made a move towards you would you have wanted to take another step towards her? If she had not seemed to care, would it have bothered you the way you thought it might?

I know you've been doing a lot of introspection lately, I know you've been doing a lot of work. So I wonder if you weren't testing yourself more than you were testing her.

You aren't sure how she feels, and you aren't really sure how you feel, either.

It's a scary place to be, not knowing if you really want to stand or wait or move on. Only you will know for sure. And when you know, you won't be questioning it. You'll just know.

((hugs))

btw~I'm on drugs right now, forgive me if I'm not as eloquent or fluid as I think I am...