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[steady]

CD - I actually feel pretty good. It hasn't really done much internal damage. I've been going through my sitch for two and half years now and have had plenty of time to detach. I also knew she would eventually be with someone and even had a sense she already was. So all of that dampened the impact of it.

TimeHeals - to be honest, it didn't bother me at all. She would show me the emails and they were harmless stuff about his life and stuff that was going on. She even said a number of times, 'He has no shot', and even called him a dork many times to me. She would also make fun of his long emails and how he would complain about all this stuff.

Live and learn.

Pinhead - the thing is this - I wasn't insecure and jealous and never was bothered by it at all. I'm not sure when it started up but my feeling (gut) is as she was going through all of this he provided the 'emotional' support she was seeking in her victim role. We all know about EA's.

FaithnAK - yes. The gut was there but I could not find any solid evidence. I looked.

In my mind I stopped wondering because it doesn't change anything. The only thing it will change at this point is how she will look in the eyes of the court and the psychologist due to the fact she has brought our children around him. I never imagined she would do that since we had even talked about that a few months after she dropped the D bomb. I assumed she was smarter than she really is.

I am attempting to collect more evidence so I can give it to my lawyer.