Thought I would take a quick moment to update. Not much to add, really, except I am working through frustrations this week. I see positive progress yet I am feeling impatient. I know it may take some time for H to feel fully committed again, but it's hard for me wait. Now that I know my own worth, I believe I am deserving of a good man who wants to be my partner! (I know, this is a common theme among my last dozen posts...lol)
I guess the thing is, I have to go through life right now without that and just rely on my other relationships to get me through this time.
Meanwhile, things ARE looking up with H. No "ILY" yet or full affection, but his pleasantness does not feel forced anymore. He has taken initiative to do some things for me and is calling me "honey" these days. Still doesn't call me by my pet name, but honey is a step up from calling me "Sunny" or "Your Mother" (to the kids).
I guess the hard part is that I want to move on from here - to Piecing - yet I do not know that H is ready for that.
I did ask about doing some things this weekend (as suggested above) and he wants to go. That's a start. I know it will be sad for me to go and things be more as friends than a married couple, but it has to start somewhere, I know. We also both really enjoy football (both college and pro) so that's a good thing around our house right now.
At some point I feel I have to get H to commit to MC or something. Our issues are not going to resolve on their own. Also, I need it for my own piece of mind. Women want security - and I feel I have NONE right now - that H could simply change his mind about the M at any moment and say, "I never said I was committed to saving it...." and he would be right: he hasn't. Perhaps that is why I am so impatient right now. I'm feeling insecure.
