Hey Sandi, I hope everything is well with you. I'm not sure each day is different for me right now; I'm trying finally listening to you & backing away only contact if it's about our S!!
The past 2 weeks have been Eye opening. I haven’t given up, but I need to look forward for myself. I'm not sure if OM is in picture, but till she is over him or he is out if the picture there is no hope for R.
I don’t deserve that or want it in my M as I told Allen I wish I came here when I busted the A back in Feb. instead of Jun. not sure if the outcome would have been any different.
Here is a little story I was working the other day let's just say it a big Swedish store & a very attractive woman in her 30 was asking my advice on some of her furniture & what would go with her new place. By the 3rd time I helped her; I said I haven't done this in 9 yrs. but you are really pretty. I said my w & I are going through some hard times. She said her husband & her were going through the S&D process too.
I actually felt good and she said I hadn’t heard that in a while, so I hope I had made someone's day. Along with my changes I have seen changes in my W kind of going back to when we first were dating. (Maybe it’s the independence).
One thing we agreed not to date or have sex during this process. I've kept my word I would hope she has too. Do you think it's wrong to date I know it would help me keep my mind off her (of course nothing serious).
I’m just not sure how I feel about it yet, or anything else. The only thing I know is that I still love her, and this is a very long and hard process no matter what the final outcome is. Well thanks & take care Hope
