My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

I know Al - I've detached physically - but not mentally or emotionally. I get through the days better in terms of not thinking about H as much / but when the alone time comes the thoughts always go to what we had and to trying to figure out what happened. It's like I am driving myself crazy with these thoughts of "is it MLC?" "did he truly NEVER love me or want to marry me?" "who will he chose next?" "is he mentally impaired?" - I know that the answers to these questions really don't matter - but I do get stuck.

Anyway...I know you have all heard these things from me time and time again. It's up to me to change it. I am going to take this weekend and say no to social events - and get my act together!