hey, sent an email telling wh i hated him. it was actually another one of those heart-wrenching emails. part of the process of letting go, i think.
he called. i didn't answer. he texted. i read it. "do you want me to come over?" ummmmmmm no. i'm not writing back. i'm also not checking my email until tomorrow before i go to work. he'll probably say 'lets talk about it in person'.
work is not great. in fact, it's bad. but i met with my principal today and he cut one of my classes. he's also planning on hiring someone to help me and our other sped teacher out. so it should get better. he also taught my class for an hour today to give me some extra time. it helped a lot. and i think he saw all that i have on my plate!
that's kinda what prompted the anger toward wh. being a single working mom. it's a lot easier being a maternity leave mom. but add in work and it gets harder! not that it's awful. i don't hate it. but today was one of those hard days.
so i gave him an earful! (i said things like even if i sit with you and laugh and give you food, just know that later i'll spend nights like this hating you.)
he deserves it all.
then i heard the latest kings of leon song, and things got better. i LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE kings of leon!
oh, here's the other thing that made me upset.
there's this guy at work. i've worked with him for two years. he's sweet. i don't crush on him. but he's sweet. well, he recently broke up with his girlfriend of 3 years. and he is now sort of dating a different girl at work.
and i'm just jealous.'
and i'm mad at wh that i'm in this position!
so that's that. trying to regain my confidence and happy outlook on life. i think i really depended on work to help me with that since wh left. and now that work's not there, i'm looking for wh and oh, he's not here!
oh YEAH! i forgot about the other thing. wh got a new job. now makes $30,000 more than when we were together. nice huh? more child support. but then i realized with child support being 16% standard (i think), that's only a little less than $3,000 for me a year. So he's got an extra $27,000 to play with! i am actually really pissed. my next step is to ask for 20% because of a sort of alimony type thing. i did put him through grad school, after all. in my state you have to be married for 10 years to get alimony and we're a little over 9 right now. so i'm going to ask for it because it's not fair.
nothing's fair! but a little monetary compensation will make it better.
