Continue to GAL. As proof, I took my first pole dancing class today! I felt totally stupid and uncoordinated but it sure was fun! It's a great way to concentrate on yourself and get in shape. Plus, having to get some kick ass stripper heels was super fun and something I NEVER thought I would ever do. But you can't work the pole without a proper (make that IMproper) set of heels! My purpose in taking the class was mainly to help me work out some of my subconcious puritanical sexuality issues that were brought on by my upbringing. I think this is JUST what I need and look forward to my next lesson.
As for my H, he stopped by after dropping D off. He mentioned that he was refilling his AD script and thought they were working. I probably shouldn't have, but I agreed and said that it seemed like "he had less of a weight on his shoulders". It's true and he's been a lot more chipper and less morose lately. He immediately made a joke about his WEIGHT and I laughed it off and said that wasn't what I meant. And then he averted his gaze, looked down and got a horribly hurt and pained look on his face which he tried to immediately hide and recover from. My first instinct was to ask what he was thinking. But I knew better. If he wanted to share, he would have. But apparently, it was not wise of me to mention his state of mind. I managed to touch a nerve somehow. I don't know what was up and I probably never will. Just found it interesting. More proof that they show happiness and chipperness on the outside but that's not what's necessarily going on internally.
"Love me when I least deserve it, for that is when I need it the most"
M18 Me39,H42 D16 Bomb 1/10 Moved out 3/10 OW 6/10 H wants to R,OW gone 11/10 H moves back 5/11 H wants to wear rings again 9/11
