WAW left on Independence Day and not communicating

[NotCrackingUp]

Hurtinhartford,
Don't apologize. I feel like sh** warmed up myself at times. And aren't you lucky that she's never said nasty things to you? But maybe she doesn't say what she feels, runs away rather than gets it off her chest?

I too would be intrigued if I thought my H was keeping things I gave or sent him now. He has not binned the letters I sent him (before reading DB) or eliminated the few e-mails I sent. But I've never given that much thought before. For my part, I still have on my mobile phone atext he sent me on the 18th of April last, 12 days before the bomb, telling me he was "very sad about" [the affair] and that "nothing was over between us, I mustn't worry". I re-read it now and then, to remind me that people can change.

Let's hope they can also change for the better too. Sometimes I think he's keeping me as a security blanket, sometimes I really think he's confused and oscillating. All I know is that the OW has put him under a "text message terror"regime in the past, that he's the sort to HATE that kind of behaviour, and won't stand it for long. Thus, though it goes against me, I'm staying very quiet and letting him do the running, no pressure from me.

Even though you'd love to prompt a message from her, I'm sure that you're more likely to be successful if you manage to stay dark. If she's sentimental like you say, she'll act sooner or later.

My downtime is on Saturdays and Sundays, epecially at night. Then I feel horrible, alone, a failure, unloved. I feel I've such a lot to give him and he's just turned his back on it, hopes to find better elsewhere.

I try to keep in mind that people want what they can't have. On that principle, I'm being very scarce and breezy. I feel better myself for it and it might work!
keep the chin up.
NCU