I think the mood shift that you've noticed is because I'm not being hit daily with emo conversations...begging, pleading and on my side defending, explaining. I finally feel like I have a minute to deal with the demons in my head...which is what I asked for way back in May.
My doc put my journey in stewardess terms. "I have to apply my oxygen mask before I can take care of anyone else." When I was being hit with M talk and emo breakdowns (I don't judge him for them I just couldn't do much for him) on a daily basis I couldn't breath or think straight. Now he has taken a step back and I can see.
I'm still all confused but the questions are becoming clearer. And once I can clearly see the questions/problems I have...the sooner I can deal with them.
As for my posts on other threads, thanks for your vote of confidence. I am always so worried about posting since I'm the odd man out on here, but I do what I can.
Doodi
PS>>>I just noticed your stats...they are almost exactly the same as mine, except your a little bit older than I am. Just thought I'd share that. I am absolutely random at times.
"I feel like Rocky in the fifteenth round, beaten beyond recognition, when I realize, the only person I've been fighting for is...myself."
