Rob, I wasnt gonna text or email it. When the time is right, it will be done in person. What I was referring to is the fact "i think she gets it" as to the way I am conducting my life.
A few weeks after the bomb, when she came down and talked to me at 3 am after I went out, when she said " not that it matters anymore, but why have you never fought for me"? At first that statement made me thin I need to wooo her, I did, and guess what didnt work.
So where I am at today, the person she is right now is not worth fighting for. She probably wanted me to keep pursueing to nurture her own insecurites. But I cannot do it, part of me wants it to work for the kids, convienence, and the fear of what lies ahead for me on my own. I am starting to embrace being on my own. I feel less stress, anger and tension.
I am on an up today, could be on a down tomorrow after the hearing, dont know but I cant worry about it. As I work on myself and she does whatever she does, she is not my focus anymore.
