What was his reaction to you saying the M is done?
I can't remember -- are you seeing anyone else right now? Is there OM involved?
Well I've had to keep repeating that it's done and that I'm not working on it at all. I've told him that I have to fix me before I can even think about our R. He seems to finally get it. Last night he said that he hopes that I do get myself "stable" (mentally) and that once I'm finally there I will still want him. He says the right things but I wonder if it has really set in.
I am absolutely NOT seeing anyone or chatting with anyone...unless you count all the LBS's on here. There is no personal chatting at all. I have really made of point of stearing away from males all together. I want to make sure that my actions are based on what I decide is best for me and mine, not what made me feel good for the moment.
I honestly don't know that I want to get into another R. I am very damaged mentally from my childhood and a rather rocky M. Right now I want to conquer my issues and raise my kids. I'm not saying it will never happen but it isn't anywhere on my radar at the moment.
"I feel like Rocky in the fifteenth round, beaten beyond recognition, when I realize, the only person I've been fighting for is...myself."
