And now, what am I afraid of most? That she'll take S4 away from me or limit my time with him. Why am I still letting this fear cripple me?
Because you can.
John, if she has to support herself, pay for her own things, her rent, her attorney, she's going to have to work a bit. You will have time for your child.
I've seen reality hit WAWs, and sometimes they get so angry and stupid when reality bites that they screw everything up (not saying this will happen), and then the father gets primary custody.
The fact is, if you follow her game plan, you lose. So let her go and protect yourself. You can't make her change her mind, you can't decide things for her, but you can control exactly what John does.
M-47,W-40,No kids D-filed 5/27/2010 Piecing - 10/21/2010 -=Soon to be banned=-