The more I think about it, someone said something to me the other day that I didn't want to believe. He told me he has felt like from day #1 of our M he has always felt like my W held our S4 over my head, that she could leave at anytime and take him with her and there was nothing I could do about it. So, I let her cross my boundaries all the time for fear of losing my child.
He is 100% right. I remember all those times of her threatening to leave and I think back and realize that yes, I did love her and wanted her to stay and I was willing to always work on the M because of my morals and obligations, but I wanted my S4 more.
And now, what am I afraid of most? That she'll take S4 away from me or limit my time with him. Why am I still letting this fear cripple me?
----"Et tu, Brute?"---- me:28 W:24 S4 T:6 M:4 EA Exposed: 5/21/10 Bomb: 6/20/10 (Father's Day) NC w/ OM: 7/10/10 W moved out 8/21/10 http://bit.ly/aOrZne - My sitch
