IB, I know I have told you this before. I had a very, very hard time moving forward. Very hard. And you are still so early into this. This is tough stuff.
I just want so much for you to get to where you need to be. But, you need to get there in your own time. No one can push you through it. And it is very important that you give yourself the time you need.
And the way to do it is simply put the focus on you and your kids. Each day, wake up and figure out one thing you are going to do for you. Even if that means dealing with some of the anger, some of the sadness, some of the past. Just one thing a day.
I promise you this will get easier. It will.
Today, make a committment to yourself. A committment to live the best life you can. A committment that you're worthy, you matter. A committment that you love your h enough to allow him his journey and you love yourself enough to allow you yours.
Then take it. You will not be sorry you did.
So, dont worry about getting to a place to be able to talk to your h. Dont worry about his relationship with the kids.
