Not sure where to start or end, WAW - #2

[john28]

I've been thinking about this, because I'm really trying to understand and listen to my W. Sometimes I have to write out what she says and read it 100 times.

She never mentions D. She never says the word, ever. She calls our situation right now "We're having a tough time in our marriage and we're taking some time apart." Her stance right now, what she says is:

"We can not live together right now. I need a legal S so that I'm protected, because I don't trust you. We need some time apart to work on ourselves. I just can not live in our home right now because it is broken. I just can not move back in right now because it is not a good place for me or you. You know all the reasons I can't be in this M right now. I see the changes you are trying to make, but I do not trust you. I have to be able to trust you again. Our entire M has been like this, and I can not trust it will change, so I have to go on what I have been given up until this point. In the 4.5 years we've been married I've done everything you asked, and now I need to do this for me. I love you, but I can't be with you right now or anytime soon."

I feel like she is not closing the door completely when she talks to me and tells me these things. I feel like it is not an effort to play me and she is sincere.