Brooklyn is right, you really need to take this time to heal. You need to let go of the OLD M. The only way that a new M can be formed is if the old one dies. That does not mean divorce it just means that you need to move past your old R with your H. Remember the good times, the bad times...well those need to be released.
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I am not sure why I have been stuck for so long / wallowing in the muck of my H's MLC
Don't think of it as being "stuck". Think of it as being that YOU will let go when YOU are ready to let go. It seems that you have begun the process of letting your H go. Cry as often as you have too. Just let it all out. Take your time and grieve your old M. Respect it for what it was.
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So, picking myself up for the millionth time since all of this started
And you will continue to pick yourself up! One day at a time. One second at a time. Stop for a minute and recognize your strength. Take pride in your internal fortitude - many will run because they do not have the strength to endure what YOU have already been through. Lean on your friends, lean on these boards we all understand.
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I have to figure out how to get through
No 'have to" - WILL. You will get through this.
This chit is hard IB....but you can do it.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans