It's amazing when your heart gets torn out that they still want to be "friends."
It is amazing indeed. I guess it is a self serving thing. "See, my ex is still friends with me, I did not hurt him that bad."
It's killing me that my W is now nicer than ever. We have had so much fun lately. It feels like dating again. We have so much to talk about and can hang for 6 hours in a row with no silence.
Before even having a 45 minute dinner was painfully long and silent.
Not too long ago she would come home only to sleep. We did not talk for days. She was totally detached, distant and had nothing to say to me.
Now when she's home she constantly pays attention to me. Interacting with our pets, doing my laundry and generally acting like all was okay.
That is all happening while she is waiting for me to move out. She is celebrating her freedom in a very strange way. Since I walk around all in smiles while still burning inside she might think that it's not all bad for me. How could they do that is beyond my understanding of human behavior.
I don't want to feel anger or resentment. I need to get out as soon as I can and go dark like I've never have been before.
