Yes I know I've received good advice. That's why I come here, to either be hit by 2 x 4's or thrust into a mirror; to talk to people in the same boat I'm in. And I do follow it. It's just sometimes the war in my head gets ugly.
I just wrote on IB's thread, that maybe we're hanging on to the last thread of our old R before letting go. I know that there is no going back to the way things were. The hardest part of that is, I didn't think it was bad. Pretty good, in fact.
I have to straighten my shoulders, and prepare for the worst. If the worst doesn't happen, at least I'm prepared. If it does, I'm prepared. I'm not doing anything for HIM. Just ME.
I say a prayer each morning before leaving for work. In it I ask that I be the best mother, grandmother, friend and employee I can possibly be that day. To be the best ME I can be. Somedays are better than others, of course.
The first of the Fall Crafts Fairs is this weekend. I've got something to look forward to. My two oldest grandsons will be spending the weekend with me, so I'll take them and fill them full of cotton candy and roasted peanuts.
