Three things happened today that got me maaaaaaad!
In order of worst to ?? (least worst?):
1) For the first time in seven years, I didn't get a merit raise. I am LIVID! Because: a) Even though my divorce from Mr. A has turned my life upside down, for some strange reason, I think it actually helped me at work! I feel more valuable, useful, and effective than I ever have before - in all of my seven years there. If there's one year I deserve a merit raise, it's this year. YET, this is the only year that I haven't gotten one. b) I think my boss decided not to give me a merit raise because of his own misperception that I could have done better had I not been getting divorced. This teaches me a lesson never to share any details of my personal life with someone who controls my raise. I mean, I don't have any concrete proof that this is what prevented me from getting a raise, but I should have gotten one. I busted my butt! More than usual, even!
Writing this out, I am SO mad about this raise thing that I don't even care about the other two. But I put them out there, so:
2) My sister asked me to borrow money. Normally that would be fine (she pays it back), but I'm feeling super-poor now because of the whole raise thing. So that was just another thing to be crabby about.
3) Mr. A is unpredictable. He left me yesterday morning when he went to work and there hasn't been much contact since.
So what am I doing about it?
1) I didn't say anything to my boss today, even though I wanted to tell him where to go.
2) I kicked butt at work today.
3) I scheduled an appointment with an employee assistance counselor to figure out how to talk to my boss.
4) I was polite (but not friendly) to my boss today.
5) I am sleeping on it and trying to take the emotion out of it.
6) I golfed, did an abs workout, and did yoga.
Other: I'm going to wait a little while and then ask my boss to reclassify me to a higher appointment that will result in a pay increase.
I want and need a raise asap. My boss didn't give me one. I have to do something about it or I'll be steaming for the next year!
