I gave up...filed for D

[luvless]

Thanks courts I really do appreciate your posts.

Ya know yesterday was the first day since all this happened that I actually felt like I can close the door and be ok. I hope they weren't temporary thoughts/feelings but it was nice to feel like I don't care what happens.

I had a dream last night that stbxH came asking me back. He looked so different in the dream - I looked at him and said "no way are you crazy?" I said it and felt it which was weird since all this time I really wished our marriage would be reconciled.

I have been so exhausted lately. I haven't slept in weeks and it caught up to me finally. I slept in today and if it weren't that I had to take kids to school I would have slept till the afternoon!

I don't know what to do anymore but to start letting go. I pray for Mr. Luv every single day and night. I feel a little relieved.

Luv