Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

So glad my hormones are back in order for the month. 27 days of sanity then the insanity strikes again.

CG, you are right. I do still fear making H angry. Is it rational? No, and I know that. But it's still so ingrained in me that I am not sure how to stop it. Seeing/talking to H is a trigger for me to fall back to the beginning. I need to work to the point where it is not. One step at a time, one day at a time.