I don't know if I'll make much sense trying to put this into words, but I've learned that I have to do things based on "will" instead of emotion. I may not "feel" like I've been forgiven, but based on what I've been told...I have, so with that in mind...whenever guilt trys to overcome me then I tell myself that I have been forgiven and I will act like one who is forgiven.
In your case, you would tell yourself that you may not "feel" like you've dropped the rope but you will act as if you have. You opperate out of your "will" and not out of "feeling".
That's not to say you never allow yourself to feel anything again, but until all of this has passed, maybe it would help you to stop opperating out of your negative emotions and do what you "should" do. Act "as if" you've dropped that rope!
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
