Where does the WAW go

[A_goodman]

Doodi,

I want to add to what FMV said. I think way back at the beginning, Sandi or the Greek mentioned that you had nuggets to come into this room. You don't often see courage. Especially when it's yourself that's being courageous. That is no small thing. I know that you probably read scores of threads before you started yours. you knew that your position was not exactly favored. Now, it's played out that the folks on here are the wonderful people I believed they were and they have rallied around you. But that does't discount the guts it took to step up and lay out your story.

Your life is NOT boring at all. Everyone has the opportunity to live life on their own terms and achieve great things. Not everyone has the grit and salt to do it though. I don't think you are a "wisher". Maybe you haven't found that thing that makes you happy, or the path that leads to YOUR greatness yet, but when you do I expect you will have the nuggets to get it done. And THAT is really the most important thing.

Go get that job. Maybe God intended you to live through what you have so that you can be his arms and eyes and voice, thereby allowing you to help others to overcome. (others without your tougness). Maybe you're destined to become a great writer (I agree with whoever told you that you already are a very good writer BTW). Who knows, maybe your destiny is in cross-cultural work.

Whatever it is, you have what it takes to be happy. You have to start believing in yourself. Hell, if all of us complete strangers can see these things and believe in you, than it has to be there for all to see. Including you, when you open your eyes and look.

Be strong.