WOW school was really tuff this last mod. Had toooo many hard classes together. Each class has three chapters from the book we go over during the week and then we get tested on those chapters. LAN wiring was not a problem. I am a very mechanical guy. ANYTHNG I take apart I can get back together. BUT… Network II and XP were hard. I found if I concentrated on one class to pass the weekly tests the other was hurt. I actually failed a test in my network class. The problem was that the instructor told us that we need to study the homework questions more. Well until then I was getting B’s on my tests so I figured I would concentrate on the homework questions…. BIG mistake… the test only had about 3 questions from the homework. I felt like I was going to a BBQ with baking utensils. The instructor would not let me take a makeup test. However I always did any extra credit he gave the class and with my 100 % attendance I ended up getting a B in the class. Oh ya I made the honor roll…. The “presidents honors” 3.85-4.0 GPA AND the 100% attendance honors list. Ok I already told ya all about my jeeps radiator blowing up on the way home from school, then my truck started acting up when I started driving it… Well both of those have been fixed.
Are ya still with me here?????????????? Ok now for what I came here for…. Things have been really good between W and I. we are really getting along great. She still does not have a job and I know this really bothers her but part of the problem here is that she has not gone out and looked for one. She has joined a Yoga class. This did cost a little money (that we really do not have) but if it helps her out with her feelings of self worth then I am for it. She has also seen a doctor about head aces. The doctor told her it was from stress. I am getting better every day about not taking things personally. But it is hard. IT’s hard because of the affair. W has told that it was her with the problems and that it was NOT me, she told me that sex was something she could take or leave. Was not important to her. And then she goes and has sex with her EX BF. Well to me that is kind of like cooking someone dinner they tell you not to take it personally but they are not hungry. Then you catch them eating some fast food right after…
But anyway let me tell you about last night. Kind of just like last time...one thing lead to another and Right before bed W and I were talking really about nothing really when she said she needs to paint her toe nails because all the women at Yoga have theirs painted. (W has never painted her toe nails before) anyway I jumped at the opportunity and asked her if I could do it for her. She laughed and said “ya right” I told her no I really would like to do it for her. She said “we’ll see” anyway since I have no school this week when she came to bed I was still awake. She was concerned because normally I am in the shower and out of the house before she gets up. W and son both take showers in the morning. She asked me “what time are you getting up” I said (ya I know open mouth insert foot, And I only have one) “ I am already up” W said “ I don’t want to hear any of your weird painting toe nails sex comments” I told her I will be up before her in the morning. …..she told me that she does not need sex but if I wanted to she would let me have it...well that was a hard one… my animal instinct said “go for it” but my Husbandly instinct and my respect for woman..As in not just using them took over and I just turned over. She asked me if I was mad and I told her no I was just thinking. And I was….She has made “weird sex” comments concerning me before. How am I a “weird sex addict” wanting to have sex with my wife when her MARRIED Ex BF met with her in a hotel room and they proceeded to dress up and take pictures of themselves and HE had pink hair coloring both on his head and “other places”. So I told her “I don’t want to get you mad but how come I have weird sex thoughts when others that paint their pubic hair pink are ok? She said “I never have painted my pubic hair pink” I said “not you but others” she said “that never happened and don’t make me mad” I said ok we don’t need to talk about it now. She then told me that women her age just don’t need sex as much as men. “It’s a guy thing” I told her “is that why some guys cheat on their wives? Because their wives don’t need sex?” she said probably… she then told me that it’s not that she hates sex...although in our past… it was something that she “just wanted to get over with…. But now it’s different. It feels good but she just does not need it” I asked her “is it like going to curves (her gym) you really don’t want to go there but after you are there you feel good”? she said “YES that is exactly it” so we talked a little bit more and then she got the hic-ups… we both started laughing and she asked me to pat her back to see if I could make them go away…. Well I patter her back for a while and then she said…” maybe we should have sex…. It will take my mind off the hic ups and maybe they will go away…. I asked “are you serious? She said yes….. well ………………1:30 am came around and she said that was great,,,(and the hic ups went away) I told her she better get some sleep since she needed to get up at 6:00am.. We kissed one more time and then I told her “you know we didn’t have to have sex to get rid of the hic ups… you could have just drank a big glass if water” she laughed, hit me and said good night. This morning wife is not doing so well with the little sleep she had…but do you want to know the weird thing? The sex was ok… but what I really liked most about last night was the talk we had. AND I did bring up the “affair” just a little... and she did not shut down on me. I did back off for now and I did tell her we need to talk more lately but still...we ventured onto this “un spoken” territory. Yes I know some of you are thinking that I have to let go but I still think that it does need to at least be talked about to find out what happened and what we both learned from it so it will not happen again. But that is for another day
Later
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
