Go to the dr. today. I say that (and added the other R stuff in my post) because your body/mind had a panic attack while talking to your W. That will be your "panic trigger". Until you get that under control you are not in a good space to be around your W.
The level of panic you describe is debilitating. AD's are the base of the treatment but when panic reaches a certain level you need more than a base (very temporarily).
I know this is hard and VERY scary but please consider seeking medical help. Panic attacks quickly become aggressive.
It's going to be okay even though it doesn't feel like it. Just be aware of your current triggers.
