Need some encouragement

[kissak]

Well things arent all that great right now. I lost all patience with my H yesterday and asked him if he was leaving again. He got angry at me for asking. BUT the only way I will ever get a true answer from him is to be blunt.

Fact is, I havent been imagining his behaviour over the last few weeks. He still wont come right out and tell me everything...just that his walls have never come down. Things arent going or progressing as he thought they would. Supposedly Im not doing something right...but he wont say what that is because If he tells me then I will do it because he told me to, not because I want to! ??????

Im to the point I dont want him around. How can things go from good to worse in a matter of a couple weeks??

Now things are weird again with him. Im trying to be upbeat now. Actually I feel SOOO much better after getting it out of my system! He however has now been made to "think"...something he isnt good at.

Another thing bothering me was all the texting! And his financial mess. He has had 3 paychecks to pay bills out of and has spent most of his money on just stuff here and there, that now he has to take money that was supposed to be for my truck payment to pay his bills. Luckily he has a good part of his paycheck put in my account for utilites and the house payment...so the bills that arent getting paid are mostly his credit/truck payments. All in his name. He is so irresponsible still with his money. Ive tried to help him, but Im so tired of him pushing me away. When he pushes, I seem to push further.

His excuse for not telling me what was up....he thought if he ignored it, it would go away. Two years of therapy, and no better with dealing with his feelings.

I even suggested marriage counseling being he still wants things to work out....but he wouldnt say yes. Maybe because I suggested his counselor...maybe cuz he doesnt tell her everything??? Which he admitted to. BUt the idea just doesnt appeal to him.

He is however pondering all the questions and comments I made to him. Iwant to hope for the best...but with his pattern of thinking....I have major doubts. I just dont understand how things seemed good for 6 months or so...and now, this?