Not sure where to start or end, WAW - #2

[john28]

You're right PMA, I am expecting a lot of "good" to come out of the retro weekend. I have expectations, I'm not going to lie. Therefore I'm not detached.

I've decided for myself that if we come out of this Retro weekend and she has still decided to do no work for this M, I will go dark.

I would have gone dark before Retro, but was advised against action that potentially could damage the R more.

I don't know how to convey it, but the past three days have been wonderful for both of us. She is smiling a lot more, laughing at my jokes, initiating hugs and physical touch (which she has never done), has made a few slip ups and then apologized for saying something wrong to me, and is generally pretty happy. She even talked today of going to the beach again with me.

I know she is pulling me in, yes, I recognize it. But I'm conciously allowing her to do that before retro in 3 days.

Like I said, if we come back from Retro with nothing changed, things WILL change on how I treat this situation by going dark. I just didn't want to give her any ammunition to not go to Retro.