Nothing fits

[mishka422]

Aren't they FABULOUS??? That was one of the best concerts I've been to in years!

I saw Ali's lottery prediciton! Dang! Wish I was a pices. LOL

Donna, I've already tried the food stamps (I make too much for those but not enough to pay my expenses which are WAY out of wack). My rent is too high for me to pay on my own, I already take as much from my mom as I can without bankrupting her, Gabe has been making good sized contributions. It's still not enough. I still have all the expenses we did when we were M'd with less than half the income. It's just not pretty but nothing I can really do about it.

Marc doesn't qualify for reduced or free lunch for the same reasons I don't qualify for food stamps. It's really stupid! No one wants to look at your expenses, only your income. Umm....ok....could we look at the cost of living in the area first? Hello! The median income in my city is $110,000 per year. I make less than 1/5 of that. They only use the federal poverty level formula. That formula is so screwed up! It averages the income from the entire country. That includes rural areas, farming communities, etc.. What does that tell you? LOL! It's really crazy! Federal poverty level for a household of 2 people (I can't count my mom or Gabe as I am not legally responsible for them and they each have an income) is $14,000 per year. No one could live on that.....ANYWHERE! CRAZY! You just have to laugh about it or you'd cry.

I am going to have to go to the food pantry (that I just donated food to last month) this week. The hot dogs and macaroni salad were devoured yesterday and my mom needs protein. Thankfully she gets her social security tomorrow! YEAH!

Anywho....that's enough of that crazy crud. One day at a time people. One day at a time. It's all about perspective anyway. Even though I barely make it through each month I'm still better off than probably 90% of the world's population. I have a roof over my head (as overpriced as it may be), I have food to eat (even if it's a bowl of cereal), and my mother is being taken care of medically through Medicare and the kidney foundation. That is a miracle in itself.

See.....I'm blessed in so many ways!

On the Gabe front.....I'm no glad that things are the way they are, but I'm not inclined to rock the boat either. He helps me, he hugs me, and he's a good dad to Marc. I can't ask for any more than that. It's fine.

I've said it before and I'll say it again....not all people are destined to have true love in their lives. The most we can hope for is contentment. People really need to stop dreaming about the romantic, lovey dovey crap they see in movies and start living in reality. Life is brutal. Having someone to share life's burdens with is the ultimate in survival.