I think I'm starting to feel a little depression here
Be careful with this ^^^^ if you really start to feel depressed you may want to talk to your doctor about putting you on some anti depressants. They take time to work so the sooner you start them the better. I am not an advocate for medicating depression but sometime ya gotta do what ya gotta do.
PIE – IF your H is indeed having an A – does this change what you are going to do for YOU? As much as it hurt you need to let go of any thoughts of him and OW. Cry now, scream now, let all of your anger, hurt and pain out and then let go.
The normal tendency will be to internalize the anger, which will lead to depression or let out the anger at your H. Neither of these approaches will work. I did both. I internalized for a while (I stayed in the same bed with her knowing it was going on) and then one day exploded. About a month later my W filed.
IMO, you must now find a way to release this anger in a constructive and positive way. This will be a challenge – don’t kid yourself. You might feel like this is “it”. I can’t do this anymore. I am here to tell you that you can. YOU can do anything that you set YOUR mind to. Now, will you want to? That is another story all together.
For me personally, I held on to my anger for a long time and although I thought I “hid it” well…I can honestly say that looking back I did not. The anger will want to consume you – don’t let it. Remember why you are here. Remember what you are hoping to accomplish.
In closing, remember this….everything we do is a choice. Everything. Be true to you. Be true to what it is that YOU really want.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
