cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

NM- the mushroom cake was awesome! and I am so proud of it

Yeah I am definitely allowing S to enjoy his musical side. He also likes the piano (which I will be sad for S when H takes that) and the guitar, which he also has. I especially love that he makes up songs about his day. I will hear him with his guitar, on the piano, or on his drums singing about his day. I hope he doesn't ever stop that because he will be my little song writer.

In other news, H text me Sunday to ask about a party for S. I said I was having one with my family and friends (I didn't say when in case he decided to show up), and then asked if it was ok for MIL to throw one. She didn't want to step on my toes. I said it was fine as long as it was during the time H has S. I just don't know when that would occur because there is a game on Saturday so H's parents will go to the ND marchout to see BIL on Friday and not get back to the house until 6 and S comes home at 7. Then Saturday they will go to the game and won't be back until late. I will let S stay later or even go over there for a bit on Sunday for a party, but I haven't been asked so we will see.

Otherwise, S is loving his drums! I am so glad I bought those for him. H said right after he left that if he came home one thing that would change is S wouldn't be allowed to have drum sticks anymore. That bothered me because although S was obsessed with drums for a while, he did do other things as well, H just never saw that. Now S will play all kinds of instruments and of course is back to loving the drums, but this is his first real set and two of his friends have the same drums so he is excited to finally have his own. S plays the drums for a while then plays with his new motorcyle and truck and then back to drums, and so on. It is so cute! He is loving it. S told me yesterday "mommy when I was sleeping I saw those drums" The first dream he has every told me about and it was about his drums. I am glad I coudl make him so happy on this day.

Lastly, it has been weird, but for teh past few days I have been missing wearing a ring. I miss having it there. I am not at all looking to date right now, although everyone asks me, but if a prospect came along I might say yes. I am still just not ready for the next guy. H has been my only guy ever so it is weird for me to think about even holding another guys hand. I am still devoted to H in some ways. Also I have been thinking about this day 3 years ago. It was the best day of my life. H and I were so close. I have so many funny stories about this day. Today three years ago is the day I went into labor with S. I went into labor at 2:30 am today and had S at 4:20 am tomorrow. It was a long fun, hard day, and I only have wonderful memories about it. It was this day that my most precious gift and most important job started. I am so proud of my little guy and tell him that all the time. He has his moments, but since he got over colic for the first 3 months of life, he has been the best kid ever!