Just an update. Was too rainy to take another painting trip so decided to have a big cooking day as my GAL fun this weekend instead. Although I typically used to do this in the fall, I didn't last year at all. So was nice to get back at it. I filled the freezer with packages of spaghetti sauce, baked chicken breasts, seasoned taco filling, and porcupines (aka little meatballs with rice, baked in tomato sauce). It took a whole day and it was wonderful to focus on chopping, mixing, rolling, and seasoning. My thoughts were a little unsettled after my IC appt on Fri, so keeping my hands busy helped keep me focused on positive things. We actually didn't talk much about the M this time, more about my childhood. She actually used the term 'emotional abuse'. Although I've had moments where I suspected that's what had happened, I'd also (as usual) promptly discount such thoughts and chided myself for being too sensitive. So the appt was both unsettling, and validating and freeing at the same time. One of the things she said that I keep remembering is that 'it wasn't my fault that I couldn't fix it'. So. Anyways. This isn't M stuff I know. Just mentioned because the cooking helped distract my mind from it. If anyone's finding their mind whirling about something, try rolling a couple pounds of meatballs - it helps!
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
