Thanks Punkin and Gritt - day ended up nice with the kids. The 4 of us sat down at dinner and said grace and had a lovely dinner. H did not contact kids today. In some ways they said it was easier for them. He is not the same. Again, I believe what I've been told on this board - H is responsible for his relationship with the kids, not me.
New start tomorrow - focus on IB.
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time