Ok, well, I'm having a pretty bad day today--guess that is allowed! It's Labor Day and everyone seems out with loved ones. I could have gone to the beach with H and S, but I had such a sad day yesterday that I just didn't feel up to it, but wanted S to have fun and couldn't think of anything else for us all to do--I am almost paranoid about spending time with STBXH. So H went happily with S on his own...
Yesterday I went to see my dad with my sister who drove up 4 hours to get up here as he is not doing well. (Last stage Alzheimers). He has had a fever and hasn't been taking any food and barely any liquids for a couple of days. He tried to smile a few times, but couldn't speak much. It was heartbreaking.
Intellectually you know what is happening, but it is still a shock. He really isn't that old at 73...
And then a friend of mine whose daughter was about to start school at my S's school (and we were SO excited about that!) decided to go live with her dad, who is 2 1/2 hours away. My friend's S went off to college a few weeks ago in another state, and now her D is with her dad and she is having such a hard time. I feel sick to my stomach for her.
I just don't know what my life will be like soon and it is killing me today. When my dad dies my stepmother (who I like a lot) will be moving up to North Carolina. I was rather excited about that, thinking it will be fun to visit and do some hiking and go white water rafting with S. But today I'm just feeling sad about these people leaving, in one form or another...
