I worked my butt off unselfishly to put a family back together, a good family. My hope to the bitter end was that one day we would be fortunate to have each other again to love and support and respect and enjoy. I believed in the power of hope and love.
I thought our lives would once again be joined as they were meant to be....I have to wonder now if I truly knew what was meant to be....I was so insistent within myself and convincing to myself that I knew what was "the right thing" for us all....
I truly believed that my constant love, kindness, care and concern towards my H would be all that we needed to reconcile.
I still do not understand what my H truly feels and believes.... I don't think he knows either, I think he has made a choice and is going to run with it, be it right or wrong. He made a choice....
Hope....I will never lose it. I am going to re-direct it for better use for me and son, perhaps on a different path now.....
I have to give up my stand......I will lose me forever if I don't. My son needs me.
Beatrice, I can't thank you enough for starting this thread. You started it on my birthday. I needed to share with others who have been in the same place for a long time, as I have....(((Hugs)))
Sanderika
ME48/H48MLC T 33y M 28y S16 OW 8/7/05 Bomb 8/16/05 Sep 9/05 H f'd D 10/3/08 D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09 D dismissed 2/5/10 H served me D papers again 9/4/10 D dismissed 9/26/11
