hoosiermama? I AM!!

[hoosiermama]

Rocked--thanks! yes, it is indeed fabulously fabulous!

BeingMe--yes, it is such a relief. I know that we're in a bit of a honeymoon phase, but I'll take that for now. At some point we will get to that "high school baseline" but I gotta believe it's a much better baseline than what we've had the past couple of years.

gardener--thank you. I truly appreciate the offer...but it's just never been in my nature (nor my experience) to make distress calls. nothing would make me feel more foolish.

yes, all of this crap does have the tendency to turn inward--which, in terms of inner child stuff, is one of the worst things that could happen.

I'm trying really hard not to succumb to the panic that's just below the surface most of the time; I need to distract myself with doing something productive because last week was NOT good. thinking of doing some painting and other projects in my house--that will accomplish many things, including nesting. I also need to begin searching websites again to see what new positions may have been added since early last week. kinda given up on personal growth stuff...in terms of Maslow and all, it's no wonder I'm not concentrating well on growth and healing because I'm forced to be focused more on survival issues at the moment.

tomorrow--potentially having coffee in the morning with a friend, then noon Mass and lunch with my priest-friend. just getting out of the house, and out of my head, will be helpful.