Okay guys, like I said, it was a rant. In actuality, my H is self-centered, though. Most successful Military Men are. Career first and all that crap. Wives rate a poor second, at best. It's just a fact of life I, and others like me, accepted long ago. H sent me letters from Iraq saying he would never, never put anything in front of me and the family again, but back in the real world . . . .
I guess time is passing too slowly for me. I've done things and stayed busy, but there is always this little ticker at the back of my brain, counting off the seconds. The pathway to Hell is paved with good intentions.
Having this court date in front of me is like waiting for a bomb to go off. In slo-mo. Worried about having to vacate my house in the dead of winter, etc. and so on. Living out here alone while waiting for my husband was one thing, but living out here alone for itself, is kind of scary, looking at the Winter ahead.
As I'm sure you all know, waiting for Him/Her to get back their sanity is hard enough without you yourself not hitting on all cylinders.
