Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

DS is home, H was very friendly, talking about what DS did there and what he ate for dinner. I feel his time with DS is his time so no need to tell me about it. It feels almost like he's trying to rub it in that has Whore making him meals and stuff and has a whole new life with her that excludes me.

It felt awkward in a way. I wanted H to just drop off DS and go and he seemed interested in visiting for a bit. Towards the end of his visit DS was pushing him to go to make sure H didn't upset me. I was doing a good job of keeping my emotions in check, was able to hide how sad I am and told DS I was ok. But H did leave, finally.