Went to a dear friend's recommittment service today. Wife had an EA earlier this year and they worked through it. H was there. It was so heartbreaking to sit there and hear those words - faithful, for better or worse... I couldn't stay long. No words between H and me. No eye contact, either. Everyone there knows we're separated, but only 2 know why (his A). I wanted to scream it out loud - that he betrayed me. Those words meant nothing to him. I've been getting so strong, realizing that he is no good for me. Realizing I wasn't fully happy for a long time before A. Realizing he is (and has been) teaching our boys that things, and now people, are disposable. It still just so hard to see him. I miss my friend. I miss my husband. I know what I must do, but it's still so hard to accept that it's come to this. I am sad.
